Yesterday, I cleaned and organized the garage; donated a few things and took some others to our storage. My plan is to sort through every box in our storage unit and decide what to keep and what to give away. It is a somewhat melancholic task, because going through all of our belongings there takes me back to a past that has slip by like water through my fingers... it takes me to what we were once, and to what we took with us on this journey, thinking that perhaps our life was going to be a sure continuation of what it had been until then… and how tenderly, and hopeful I had fold and packaged everything then... with a heart full of anticipation, and hope and a tear or two quietly harbored in my heart too. And now I’d have to give it up… give up my past for good, give a few, give it all… life has certainly its own unique way of surprising us and teaching us lessons… and for us it has been a path of new beginnings. The old life we once knew is undoubtedly no more.
It was also a day of concern and doubt and fear, but also of trust and faith and another day alone, wishing that my husband would not have to travel that often. But I’m learning. Learning to conquer my fears by holding them right in the palm of my hands. I should be fine; really.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your concerns and recommendations and good vibe. And can I tell you a little secret? And can I tell you how much you all helped me last night when I wasn’t able to sleep and you stayed with me and, by me, all through the long dark night? Thank you and thank you.
Our little cottage is now fully protected from burglary, fire, carbon monoxide and more. ADT came by today and installed the monitored systems. I’m so hoping I’ll be able to sleep tonight. I really need my rest and peace restored. Is God something like ADT? Making sure families are safe and sheltered at all times? I wonder.
Today, I cut some wild flowers from our forest beyond our backyard and made a lovely bouquet for my kitchen. I love the color yellow… yellow is the color of life; of sunshine and summer and everything warm.
OK my darlings... I'm getting ready for the night.
Enjoy something beautiful each day.
Create something beautiful each day.
Imagine something beautiful each day.