Wednesday, September 10, 2014

The lost garden...

She couldn’t say exactly when she had fallen asleep or when had she began to dream… but she had no doubt this had to be a dream… it just had to be! A dream so real though, that she saw herself standing there, right in the center of this garden in her dreams, in fully awakened senses…  


Oh she remembers having being there before… in this overgrown, disheveled, yet still lovely garden. She remembers living intensely and happily there once… but when, or how log ago was this? She couldn’t remember… 


This was certainly a magical place… and yet, somehow, it was the wrong magic. What she saw made her shiver… she didn’t like it at all… what she saw was an unloved garden… for how could one love something and forget to confer it the proper love? The efficient, tender loving care a loved garden requires?


The girl saw that weeds had taken over the lovely pebble paths, that the morning glory grew rampant, taking over places where they should have not been, and she saw that the English ivy that had been once removed from its roots had appeared again and it was now digging its tendrils into the walls of the house, tearing it apart… like water expanding in a crack…


The girl saw too that grape vines and the Virginia Creeper had taken over an entire area, hanging thick over shrubbery and trees like swinging curtains… a storm must had passed through the garden at some point, for the girl saw that her favorite tree had been cracked in half; its lovely white trunk exposed and bared and now the once perfect shaggy leafy mane stood hanging over shrubbery and adjacent trees like a sad broken brown crown.


In the flower beds over the right, the mint had grown rampant and it had taken over the place almost in its entirety…. but the saddest thing of all were the roses… oh the lovely lovely roses. 


The Orchid Masterpiece Climbing Rose the girl had planted that spring just before she left her gardens had not survived… its remains quietly rested on a bed of weeds…


Half of the long canes of the Golden Shower climbing rose should had been pruned right to the ground, because half of the rose hadn't survived the winter and it wasn’t doing good, but nobody seemed to notice these things, or care about it… oh but the girl could. She could see and hear beyond what the average human could see and hear… and thus she heard the garden’s song...

 
The girl was sure it was a sad song… a song that spoke of abandonment and neglect… and deep deep down from the bottom of the garden arose another song.... she heard it too, and understood.  It was the song of regret sung by her own little heart… 

Quickly, the girl pushed apart the tall garden phlox growing around the rose bushes and foxgloves, and there, among the weeds growing freely on the flowerbed’s floor there she saw something else… the vision of another garden… a garden far far away sitting right on the way of the southern winds... the girl smiled happily. Her little heart now softened and purified. She then said her goodbyes to this garden, and left.


PS:  Our voyages have taken us to the west coast these days, and right now we are in San Diego where my husband is attending some meetings while I enjoy the sceneries and little shops in the area… and think of you too, and how close I may be from some of you! 

It truly is a beautiful place, with beautiful trendy people and the breezy warmth and palm trees and amount of flowers certainly add to the beauty… you feel as if you’re walking in Paris or in some other European city… oh oh and I’d discovered a little Goodwill close by that’s just amazing… I may have to go there again and get me a new skirt ;) Did you notice that on the photograph I posted on my previous post (taken at the Desert Garden on Balboa Park) I was wearing the exact same skirt and top I had wore last time I visited the house in the rose, five months ago? Yes, my profile picture on the right was taken during that visit. Embarrassing… ;) 



Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Lost?


I am a one-winged butterfly dancing amidst the shadows of remorse.
I am the one to be blamed for the lonesomeness tapping at my heart
And the tear that smiles
And the wholesome, golden sun I could not see—self-induced blindness.

I am the Chrysalides of my own discontentment
And the light I chose to leave behind
I dreamed I chose I enamored Eros
And pushed him upon my wish  
I adorned my soul with the jewels of a reverie
But upon waking up I find myself still a beggar
Hungering after the pristine light that so warmly had glowed upon my yesterday

I am the culprit of my fractured self
A one-winged butterfly of a heart which does not know how to break free
And move on…



Well, what can I say… or think or feel?  And I’m so terribly regretting our decision to move… and so missing my girls.  And I would never be completely sure if perhaps I am really the one to be blamed for.  Am I lost?  My little heart feels lost… oh but I will fly.  I will… I must… I must! 

“She made herself stronger by fighting with the wind.”
―Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden


Friday, September 5, 2014

The enchanted fairy forest

One morning the other day I found myself in an enchanted forest… 


A beautiful magical forest where some very dear fairies lived… 


The most beautiful and cherished and treasured 
and dearest part of the whole wide forest they were… 


Surely and forever the stars of my little heart of hearts


We play all day long… In lovely tutus and beautiful butterfly wings… 


And run around the magical forest in our magical fairy dresses
 and jeweled princess crowns.


A witch came to visit…
To join the merrymaking
I think I’d seen her once or twice before.


We played dress up games…


And walked round in stylish style
In a forest where heels are a must-have 


But the bestest of best part of it all was baking with my
Penelope Cruz look-alike beautiful mama!

 Tasty Chocolate fingers… tasty chocolate face


So intense...
A little mixing here a little mixing there...


We’re having so much fun I cannot begin to tell you…
Tomorrow we’re going to visit a very special place…
Some old house some very dear gardens…
If you care to hear our story don’t forget to come back
And thank you and you and you for sharing this lovely little day with me!

See you super soon!

 

Wednesday, September 3, 2014

The pond

Our pond...  


And how it looked on that day I discovered our little white cottage 
sitting at the bottom of the road down the hill... 


Desolated and abandoned, but I saw so much potential there then.  It was something like seeing without yet seeing... then one day this summer we cleaned, dug, hauled, removed, planted… and established a garden around it.


Little by little it all started taking shape...


Months later we cleaned, drained old water, removed all debris, 
patched and repaired cracks, sealed, painted…


We wanted a darker color for our pond to give it a more natural look, but we couldn't find the appropriate fish friendly waterproof concrete paint suitable for ponds, except for this grayish one.


Then we installed the pump
...and filled it up with water


I collected mossy sticks from a huge recently fallen tree branch and brought them over…


We searched around our little white cottage for rocks and found some pretty substantial ones… we dug them out and brought them to the pond...


Big pebbles... small pebbles


Added some water plants... floating plants...
pretty plants...



And invited some friends over... of the make believe variety... 


But always in the hope of accommodating some real ones later…


This is just a prelude to an unfinished project.  Bigger decorative rocks will have to be added later on, as well as larger ornamental grasses and some more climbers to cover bared walls, but it certainly is a huge beginning.  And I am more than happy with how much we have accomplished by the end of the first summer.











 Truly amazing...
me thinks!


“Oh, it's delightful to have ambitions. I'm so glad I have such a lot. And there never seems to be any end to them-- that's the best of it. Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering higher up still. It does make life so interesting.” ― L.M. Montgomery, Anne of Green Gables



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