Yesterday was our wedding
anniversary... and yesterday the Fisherman received the call of our lives—he
was offered the position of vice-president at his old job, up north where the
house in the roses resides... which means, we will go back to our daughter and
grandbabies, to our old city and our old dear home, where my dear garden
waits. And when they call back again
next week to see if we'd accepted the offer, we will say no.
It breaks my heart to know that we're moving
farther away from mom and dad at this stage in life. It is a tremendous decision to make. Two hearts are being put in a balance...
between the past and the future, between our daughters and our ageing parents. And
we stand in the center of it all, dumbfounded, and uncertain.... almost too shocked
to make the right move right now, because we can't think straight. We can hardly believe how life is giving us a
second chance... to retake what we'd lost, to reconsider our previous move and
go back to what we left... a chance that it won't come by ever again. My little heart is trapped. And I cannot leave mom and dad behind. Just the thought of it breaks my heart. The
opportunity of being near then when we moved south was a precious gift. For 27 years I prayed that we could live, if
not in the same town as then, at least close, and we have been able to share
precious time with them since we moved south. Life's
opportunities come by at the wrong time many a time. And how's one to decide and know you're taking the right path?
My heart is my
guide, but uncertainties are blinding me, and I stand not knowing if there is
love in holding or if there is love in letting go...
Yo creo lo mejor es mudarlos. Ellos contigo up north y ban estar toda la familia junta ya q llegara el momento en q ellos te necesiten todo el tiempo y te digo esto por experiencia yo mude a los mío para misma cuadra mi mami falleció hace 2 año y tengo a mi papi al lado mío
ReplyDeleteYa empezando a perder di mente créeme cielo es muy duro pero también si miras tu nubes serca pero no 3 minutos nubes a horas de carretera oh de avión piensa en tu futuro y el de tu pescador y sin abandonarlo a ello esa es mi opinión porque yo también bibi un tiempo lejo de ellos cuando mi exposición lo trasladaron a Cskigirnia y regrese por ellos en fin tu corazón ❤️ te dirá q es lo mejor para tu familia entera suerte y q tengas una decisión correcta
Bendiciones y el señor quiera tu camino Amen
Thank you Isora... it is very sad. Mom is already living in an assisted living facility and dad is by himself feeling terribly lonely... we get to go to FL a lot now that we live here, and it is a blessing to be able to do that without having to buy an airplane ticket... we're going again in another week or so, and can't hardly wait to see them. I have always been so attached to them...
DeleteGracias mi amiga. Te mando un abrazo
Cielo
Oh- I am so so sorry. I wonder why these hard decisions are put in our paths sometimes. I know you have been happy to be closer to your parents and now this---a chance to return to the life you so loved. What a decision. I suppose there is no way you could make a commitment to just fly to visit your parents once a month--or is that not often enough. I have been there in your shoes so I know how hard it is. Blessings and prayers- xo Diana
ReplyDeleteThank you Diana. We're going through some thought decision times and need all the encouragement and guidance we can get... thank you. I truly appreciate all your comments and points of view so, so much! You're all such blessings in my life...
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Cielo
I wish you could take your mother and dad with you. It is very hard I know. I was blessed to have my past and my future all in the same area. In retrospect, it is true your parents need you, but it is also a consideration that you are also a blessing to your future, your children and grandchildren. I sacrificed my last years of walking and being healthy... and my son's normal life... It seemed the best choice if not our only possible one. Your intuition and your God is strong, and you will make the choice He wants you to make.
ReplyDeleteSometimes the opportunities appear for a reason. Often they repeat until the right time is aligned with the circumstances. I sometimes find it helpful to imagine I have made my choice and breathe in how I feel... then re-imagine the opposite choice and again truly monitor how I feel.
Good luck and clear vision for the best of your one, fabulous life.
Thank you Gayla... oh you know my heart so well, dear one. I cannot say thank you enough for so much... for just being here... always and throughout the years. Love you!
DeleteCielo
Oh mercy, what a decision....
ReplyDeleteI know, what you feel obligated, to choose.
But this is the _two_ of you... For the rest of your lives. The two of you. He being the one, who has to work. And as you well know, who has to be happy, in the place and job, he is doing. Has to not regret, work decisions, in coming years.
I have not read the other comments. I'm quite sure, they will simply agonize with you, over the decision needed. And probably agree, that No is the best answer.
But... Typically... I do not follow the crowd...
My opinion, though not really solicited, is... That he, the one who has to do the work, is the one, who should make the decision. His decision. Really his decision. Not clouded by your desire to hold onto the past. To dwell a little longer, close to the past.
Then again, this is attached to the fact, that your sister is left to carry the parent's ageing load, more alone. And that is a hard thing too.
I hope you will not be offended, by my leaving this comment. But if so, you may delete it, of course!!!! Of course! And no hard feelings. None. None.
Many, many gentle hugs, to you Dear One,
Luna Crone
Much to the contrary.... THANK YOU, THANK YOU! for helping me see outside the box, for your wise advise and because that's exactly what I need these days—good, thoughtful friends to help us see and offer different points of views. I truly appreciate all comments and thoughts; especially coming from all my blog friends who have been following me from so many years back. I know who you are, and I'm so blessed to have you all in my life. This is an amazing place for the heart; blogging has brought to my life so many, many good, wonderful people, and I look forward everyday to your guidance and support and friendship. I cannot say thank you enough... I love you all!
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I agree with Luna. As a Mom of a daughter who recently had to move 800 miles away for her husband's advancement AND took my 4 grandchildren with her, I feel the loneliness. But I have other children nearby. I think if you asked your parent's, they would tell you to go. I am assuming you have prayed about this decision?
ReplyDeleteThank you Judy... seeing our situation through the eyes of a 'mom' whose daughter left her to continue on with her life really helps me. I truly appreciate this comment. Thank you so much.
DeleteCielo
I can feel your pain. Such a decision! However, you need to pray about it first and then go where your heart seems to lead, back to where you came from. I can sense through your post, that your heart has always been there. That is my opinion. I wish you the best in whatever decision you make.
ReplyDeleteThank you.... still praying about this decision. Thank you for your words.
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