I want a Cheshire cat to live in my garden forever. I
want to hide a star in a Byzantine jewelry box decorated in jade and black
velvet, and hold it on the palm on my hand whenever I want. I want to
open my magical jewelry casket every time my soul's light is weak and see my
star erasing all darkness away. I want a magical orange tree in the heart
of my garden with fruits that possess the power to affect in curious ways
anyone who eats them, and I want to be a famous girl drummer. A
bohemian-style wild hair kind of a girl drummer, dressed in crystal embellished
frocks, over-the-knee boots, fringe-adorned dresses, and velvety shawls. In
another dream, I see myself in a totally different light. I'm
holding a shinny violoncello between my knees. The body of the cello gently
resting against my chest, whilst I balance it between my knees; eyes closed,
head turning towards where the music leads... same Stevie Nick's knee-high
boots and bohemian layers style, but instead of the wild girl drummer, I'm a
passionate melodious, gentle cello girl. Oh yes, I'm pretty sure I
am two women in one...
The Fisherman is having another birthday today, so we
celebrate his day and Valentine's Day in one day, which it really is the same
to me in representation of love, and what love really means. It's pointless to decorate the little white
cottage for Valentine's Day. I find this practice tacky in every way, and instead try to gather all these meaningful thoughts in my heart and keep
them there for the rest of the year... endurance, friendship, acceptance, forgiveness, romance, passion, and partnership—this should
be an everyday thing, don't you think so? The initial intensity of love may lessens with time and age, but what
grows up around it is a huge amount of shared experience and fulfillment that can seem to eclipse
that intensity. Love then becomes more exciting, passionate, hilarious, fulfilling, etc., all the time. It is not magic. But it is!
I love when in the morning the sun slides this way and this
other way on the horizon until it finally rests upon this corner of our little
white cottage... the light streaming through the windows on this part of the house has the power to
create something beautiful, and magical in me.
Mornings are still cold around here, and for more that I
want to get outside and start working the soil, I must wait. If it gets a little warmer this afternoon, I
will start removing dead leaves and debris from the flowerbeds. In the mean time, I will continue drawing beauty
and strength from my little jungle inside the house... all those houseplants
and potted plants winterizing inside the house; which I should say, are doing
wonderful, and growing greener and suppler everyday.
The Fisherman got me some little lights the other day... I'm
lighting up the inside of the kitchen shelves. I need more lights for the upper shelving, but
I'm already loving all that aqua coming to life and pretty dishes that now I
can see.
A few weeks ago I bought a bunch of bulbs that I should be planting
anytime soon. It may be a little early in
the year for this, but every store I go to are already packing shelves with perennials
and bulbs, and it's hard to contain oneself when you are a gardener or a garden lover and winter becomes too long...
I've been working on a few projects inside the house. Last months I found these large lamps at our
local thrift store and brought them home. I had big plans for them.
And thus, they got glamorized a bit...
To match with my living room decor...
Perfection!
I hope you're enjoying each moment with a joyful heart. Don't think that everything is peachy-happy in my life,
because it isn't. Having to deal with chronic
pain and discomfort seems to be my everyday cup of tea lately, but I still believe
that positive emotions, faith in an ever-powerful everlasting God, love,
purpose, determination, and humor boosts disease fighting immune cells... and
there's joy.
See you soon!





































